It’s a beautiful Saturday night. I remember how, as a child, I used to think about all the great options adults had for the weekend, and I couldn’t wait until I was old enough to enjoy them. Those great options are still around. According to the newspaper, there are several live bands playing around the city, and there’s a festival going on in a small town nearby. There’s a really BIG festival going on in my hometown, and I know if I went, I’d run into friends (and teachers!) I’ve known since elementary school. I’m sure there are movies playing at the theater, but I don’t remember any titles. Because that’s not how I spend my Saturday nights.
The kids are all away for the weekend, except for the baby, who is now fast asleep. And I’m spending my Saturday night stripping cloth diapers.
To be fair, I’m also watching Pride & Prejudice (the Kiera Knightly version, because I know I won’t stay awake long enough to commit to Colin Firth). And actually, I’m really enjoying the chance to sit and relax while the diapers soak. As long as they’re in the wash, I feel like I’m doing something productive, and I don’t feel guilty about just sitting and watching a movie.
Lately, I have been working on slowing down and relaxing some, instead of feeling as if I have to be working (at home) all the time or I’m not earning my keep. I know in my heart that I need to make the time to stop, breathe, and be still, but being overly busy can be a tough habit to break. Tonight, I could be doing any number of things. But I am blessed by the opportunity to stay home, watch a movie, and relax. And it is truly a blessing.
I know I’m not the only one who feels this kind of mom guilt. Do you have any tips for busy moms on learning to relax and do nothing for a few hours? Does it get easier with practice?